I find it ironic that this movie is coming out on Friday!! I think SJP's character is exactly where I have been the last few years of my life...in a race to try and do everything on my list. And make time for kids, work, friends, church, family,etc. etc. etc. I. AM. EXHAUSTED.
I have worked for 10 years in pharmaceuticals, as a representative, trainer, specialist, etc. etc. etc. The job has been one of calls, driving, samples, expense reports, dinners, lunches, snacks, birthday presents, remembering birthdays for 500 people, keeping up with appointments, and plane rides to New Jersey, Florida, California, Utah, Chicago, Kentucky, Mississippi, and the list goes on and on and on.
A few months ago I really felt the Holy Spirit and my conscience pulling at my heart. Every single Sunday morning I would sit at church and feel guilty that I was trying to rush through church, because I needed to get home and fold clothes and go grocery shopping and pack lunches and on and on and on and on! I would also feel guilty that my kids weren't at church on Sunday and Wednesday nights. I have prayed about this so much and slowly but surely God had revealed to me that it was time. Time to come to the house. Time to go home to Mississippi and see my family for longer than 72 hours. Time to be able to sit down and read a book. Time to get more than 5 to 6 hours a sleep a night, and not live off of Diet Coke and Phentermine. Time to play Barbies and actually stay at my house longer than 2 hours at a time. IT WAS TIME TO QUIT!
My mama and daddy have both been vital in this happening. They have supported me in so many ways and my mama has talked me thru all the tears. She also made me realize that change can be a good thing, and that my career is not over, just on hold temporarily. I am so grateful for my mama. I love her more than she will ever know.
So I resigned at 5pm today. I am officially the President of Goode Enterprises. I will be answering also to Paisley and Griffin, and manager of all playdates, music groups, reading times, and nose blower/boo boo kisser. I know that being a Stay At Home Mom is not always glamorous, but the guilt of never having time for anyone isn't glitter and roses!
I am looking forward to my new role. Please pray for me and my family in the weeks to come. Change is not always easy, but I will take it one day at a time.
Love you all very much!